There can be many feelings of inadequacy when moving to a new country as a missionary. Inadequate in driving on the left side of the road while sitting on the right side of the car. Inadequate in learning yet another completely different language along with many failed attempts of talking in Amharic to the locals here and receiving very strange looks. Inadequate in knowing how much you are really spending with this new currency! Inadequate in knowing the culture, customs and traditions of this new area and in finding my spot within a new team. So many times in the past two weeks since arriving in South Africa I have felt inadequate, but there is a quote that I have fallen in love with that states: “if you feel inadequate to accomplish the task to which God calls you, you are just the person for the job” (Beyond Surrender by: Barbara Singerman).

So when I doubt my abilities, skills, experience or my adequacy, I know that the Lord is faithful and is seeing the bigger picture. All the while God is providing me peace like I have never experienced before. Even though this isn’t my culture, this isn’t my first or even second language, and this isn’t familiar, I know that it is right. My spirit has come home. So as God continues to shape and mold me in this new place. God delights in our impossible, uncomfortable situations that thrust us beyond our capability because they force us to Him. The inadequacy’s in my eyes are the adequacy’s in the eyes of the Lord. For I know my adequacy is from God as stated in 2 Corinthians 3:5. So here I am in a place where I belong, a place I call my new home. Serving the Lord with my life is worth it all!